The Waiting Game....

I know what you're thinking - it's a bit early to start playing that game. 

 I know.  And I wouldn't have started playing, 

but yesterday my whole mindset changed.  

{My mom's probably rolling her eyes, because I called to ask her advice yesterday and made her promise not to tell anyone because I don't want to feel like an idiot thinking she's coming only to wait 3 more weeks...}  But you know me mom, I just have to let it all out some way or another and publicly might as well be that way.

So yesterday as we were walking home from class I started having sharp pains about where I'd imagine my cervix is.  You know in medieval movies when the bad guys are trying to break into the castle and they have to break down the big wooden doors.  They take like a huge tree trunk or something and repeatedly slam it into the doors {If you have no idea what I'm talking about the first few seconds of this Lord of the Rings clip kind of demonstrates it}  That's what it felt like.  Like this little girl kept gearing up to slam her head over and over again to "open the gates".  And it was every couple of minutes.  It hurt a lot {not as much as I imagine being in actual labor will hurt} but enough that Jeremy's hand got a lot of tight squeezes.  But I was still walking through them and talking through them.  We made it home, and they were still coming pretty consistently, but I wasn't feeling any 'contractions'.  Or what I imagined real contractions felt like.  I texted my mom asking her to describe her contractions to me - she called in less than a minute haha.  She said just keep monitoring them and keep track of how long and how often.  Of course I didn't have a single one after that... yeeah... But later I started having either really strong Braxton Hicks, or pathetic little contractions.  My abdomen kept tightening up and there was some downward force, but nothing really painful.  Went to bed half expecting to head to the hospital sometime during the night - yeah... we're still here.  Still having the same "contractions" pretty frequently and a few of those 'open the gates' pains.  

Its so frustrating because I wasn't even planning on getting paranoid/excited for at least a few more weeks.  And now here I am, practically convincing myself she's gonna get here any day now.  Gah.... This morning Jeremy and I decided we're just ready to have her haha.  I wish it were that easy.  We've yet to pack the hospital bag - I guess we should probably get on that... Part of me says "be ready! Any day now!" and the other part of me says, "Who are you kidding... you've got plenty of time!"  So I guess we'll just keep waiting.  Oh by the way, looking up real mom's explanation of what their contractions feel like is not very helpful.  EVERYONE is DIFFERENT! Its crazy.  So who knows what mine will be like.  So far I've proved to be different than my mom so there goes my best guess ha. Well that's probably enough rambling for now.  Jeremy and I have decided however that we're going to go for a long walk this evening :) You know, help her along lol.  Its weird, I thought I'd be scared or nervous, but I'm really not at all {yet}.  Just ready to go for it and meet this little girl who I've been living with the past 8+ months!  Alright, here I am rambling some more... I'm going to go get ready for class and finish up some laundry.  We'll keep you posted!

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