I have a confession...

But this confession comes with a resolution, too, 

so don't write me off right off the bat - k?

I have been a bad mother.

I don't even know if this kid is a boy or a girl - and I'm already being irresponsible and selfish.

I'm officially out of my first trimester so really I can't use that as my excuse anymore

{although I still do get nauseated more than I thought I would at this point}

I hadn't realized how bad I've been til this morning when my mom asked me what I had for breakfast 

-- nothing.

Then she {kindly} scolded me for not taking good care of her grand-baby.

It was at that moment that I realized just how bad I really have been.

Here's a little glimpse into my poor nutrition habits lately:

1. As previously mentioned I don't eat breakfast very often.  At first I was pretty good, but toast gets old pretty fast, and protein shakes (as recommended by my doctor) are nasty.  I'm a picky eater too so that makes this whole eat healthy thing even harder.  

2.  My prenatal vitamin container probably hasn't been opened in like a month

*gasp* 

I know you're all really mad and ashamed and I'm so selfish cause the only reason I don't take them is they make me so dang sick and I hate it - but I love this baby more so I'm gonna start taking them again...

promise

3. I usually eat lunch, just because I'm so dang hungry by then, but sadly, it could be healthier. 

The worst of the worst - I had popcorn and skittles for lunch on Monday.  

Yep, call CPS, I don't deserve to be a mom.

4. Exercise.  I could probably just leave it at that, but I'll say a few words.

I started out this pregnancy great! I was like yeah be healthy, exercise! Got some super cool prego work out videos and just dominated it.  

Day 2 of exercise plan - epic fail.  For some reason I just didn't really feel too good that morning, and I was like 6 weeks pregnant so weird! {Heavy sarcasm here people - I'm not that much of an idiot}

Yeah - first trimester symptoms don't really play well into that whole eat healthy and exercise plan. 

So the next few months were kinda scary. 

I think thats like the gist of my really bad habits.

But I mean, it is hard when you have a super-crazed gag reflex that thinks its funny to make you look stupid when you're brushing your teeth, or trying to eat the fish your dad made for his birthday. 

Or just trying to eat plain old chicken breasts that I know aren't your favorite

 - but you need the protein girl!

I really am not that much of a fan of meat - I'll do like a deli turkey sandwich every once in a while {which I'm not even supposed to eat whilst pregnant}, and eat a piece of turkey on thanksgiving; I'll eat half a chicken breast when my dad grills - but meat and I just really aren't friends.  I don't do bacon, sausage, any kind of fish at all and thanks to Mr. Gag Reflex I really don't do hardly any meat at all these days.  Except cheeseburgers - I can almost eat a whole one! 

WOW

Poor baby... and husband.... 

SO -- lets get to the resolution part of this post.  

I'm embarrassed enough by my horrible habits. 

First of all I'm taking my prenatal vitamins.  I hope its not to late, because if we have a baby with

 spina bifida {however you spell it} or anything bad like that, I don't think I'll ever forgive myself. 

I want to cry just thinking about it. 

Next I'm going to eat breakfast - I'm going to the store as soon as I hit "publish post".

I'm going to stock up on produce, and get me some whole grain cereal and its going to be good - ooh and maybe some yogurt too. I love yogurt!

Third, I'm going to try and eat lots of small meals during the day so that I'm not just grazing on these:

{Yes we have this size box in our room...} 

But seriously I love them because nothing calms my stomach like them! 

and lets be real - they are so good!

And these - I don't even know where to start. 

They are the craving of my pregnancy. 

I could (and literally do some days) eat like then of them.

And neither of these two wonderful, heaven sent delicacies are bad in small quantities, 

but I could really cut back a little - lot. 

So we'll work on small healthy meals/snacks every couple of hours

{Like my Aunt Alice-Marie suggested a long time ago}

Fourth, and finally, I'm going to exercise.  Get up before 10:00 each day and work out, eat healthy,

and you know, I don't think baby will be the only one benefiting from this.

I feel healthier and happier just thinking about these great changes!  

So there you go.  Thats my confession.  I'm sorry baby. I hope its not too late, because I love you so much and I can't wait to know you as more than just a little bump :) 

{There really is something in there!}

Also if anyone else is going through this same thing I am, I highly recommend this book

I bought it right after I found out I was pregnant and started reading it today - its actually pretty good! 

kluvyoubye