a special place in my heart

Saint Patrick's Day will always hold a special place in my heart.

Last month I wrote about the miscarriage we had a year

ago in February {you can read about it here if you missed it}

I recovered pretty quickly and soon after we decided,

"Hey! Why wait to try again?" 

So we did.  And after we had tried, my doctor's office called

to schedule an appointment for a miscarriage checkup.  

The secretary mentioned that it was too soon to try again

but OOPS! It was too late...  

{I didn't tell the doctor that of course}

We were working at the BYU Creamery that semester

and we got home from work at about 1:00 am

the morning of St. Patrick's Day.

I knew that if I was pregnant my hormone levels

would be high enough to measure as early as right then and there.

As soon as we got home I scurried to the bathroom

where I had hid a couple pregnancy tests.

I hadn't told Jeremy because I didn't want to get his hopes up.

The longest three minutes of my life passed.

But sure enough a little life existed inside of me.

{pregnant}

It still boggles my mind that a small organization of cells 

could grow and develop into this

A strong healthy beautiful little girl

who brings sunshine to my life each and every day.

How grateful I am to my Heavenly Father who saw

fit to bless us with this angel straight from Heaven.

He knew how much we needed her in our lives.

He knew she would be a blessing to all those around her.

Madeline I love you so much and I'm so glad you

came to our family. 

 Love,  Mom